Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Chp- 04: Time To Propose My Love


Every teenager went through such phase. Dying inside like a hell for sharing the feeling with a loved one. At some point, fear is hidden. We scared to share the feeling. And this fear is only because of the response. But this is also a lovely part of the relationship. And usually every time, only boy propose the girl. So I must take the side of boys here that, they really scares and after that enjoys this element too. Every teenager proposes with some unique ideas. 


So now the story is up to, Sankalp Dewal and Aisha Mehta are now best of friends, they are enjoying, sharing each and every moment of their friendship, supporting at good and bad times. Sankalp is dating and flirting Aisha, with some unique ideas, let us move the story ahead.

As I was recalling some incidence we had together and some future life with me, with my some love song series, I want to tell my love feeling to her, I want to tell everything what I feel when she is in front of me, when she gives her special innocent smile to me, and some our future plans. Taking a deep breath, I decided her to propose her. Without considering her response, I just want to share my feeling about her as early. I ring her, with my fingers crossed.
Hey Aisha! Are you having some free time? directly coming toward the point.
Emm!! Yeah..just came home from my Buaa's place.
Okay! so may I come at your place for the hangout? 
Always, you need to ask Sankalp? in a currish tone.
Okay! sorry, I will be there soon! I ended my call.

I was confident, hurriedly took a bath with beer shampoo, put up my deodorant, put up my ear plugs, I played only rock music for much more confidential attitude, and moved on to Aisha's place.

I reached her place. My attitude was running confident and a little bit shy too. I knocked at the door and there she was. With her open hairs, glossy red lips with a smile on her face, eyes constantly look at me and my spine of confidence was coming down slowly. I was nervous, scared for her response.
Is this a right time of expressing my feelings to her?  After sharing my feelings, will she throw me out of her house? and some bloody fucking sentiment.
Hey Sankalp! please come in, she permitted me to step in.
Yeah!. I was still running my voice low.
We were sitting in her room, passing the time in her personal computer and some boring stuff. But I was just physically present in our talks. My mind was still running in that sentiment. She offered me for a coffee.
Wait! I will have some coffee! she left the room.
I was bluffing my head constantly and amplifying myself for some confidence. I took a deep breath and the deep breath describes" I love her, and I want to tell her now only" I released a breath and Aisha enters in, with a cup of coffee in her hand. Now I want to tell her,

Hey Aisha! I was still running my sound low but was much better than the previous one.
Yeah, say naa! she was so normal, why can't me. 
Emmm!! the reason behind coming here is, I want to share everything with you.
Say naa! What happened? 
Aisha I want to share everything with you what I feel for you, and that's the reason for coming here. I cutted down the ribbon, now it was no chance to step backward.
Arey baba! Say naa, why are you so getting nervous? she was sustaining me to tell everything.
Here is my personal diary, I did not share this diary to anybody, you are the first. Please read your content only, and the other stuff I had told you. and I handed over the diary to her.
Ohh! Interesting, she started going through the diary.
We were in her balcony, with a cup of coffee in the hand. I was effortless to look at her. The only thought was coming in my empty mind was, to jump out of the balcony, but it also might give me some injury if possible, the height was not like to occur death. 


I was facing opposite to her. She calls me by my name. I turned around facing her, still I was not prepared for making the eye contact with her. I said to my spirit " Kaisa Mard Hai Be Tu." And that saying directly gone towards my ego, and immediately with a fraction of a second I made eye contact and one fake smile towards her.
So! How was it? with the fake smile and little bit low voice.
You are too stupid! slowly moving her fine neck. I didn't reply her, my mind was not catching what to speak.
So on that day, Upadhyay not refused you to attend the lecture, but you were out because I refused from the lecture? So stupid are you yar, Reeeaaaaallllyyy!!. 
Ohh!! Yeah! again that same feeling.
She said me to get in the room. Sitting on the chair, and she too was settled next to me. I spoke up.
So Aisha! The only thing is, I just want to share my feelings with you, I was dying like a hell. 
Placing her plate "You know Sankalp, you are really dumbo, stupid, mad fellow I ever saw" A perfect smile on her face, this smile was unseen, ever, maybe I was the first, as her eyes are expressive, today the smile is also expressing what she want to tell. And seeing my angel's smile, my face was glowing gently. I was forgetting my nervousness and like a hell feeling.
"I agree with your feeling, I was too confused with you and you helped me out of this confusion"
Means? I won't get what you want to say?
Even! My heart too beats for you! in a shy tone and smile on her face.
Oh god! What can I do? I want a big laughter, want to cry, want to dance, want to sing, and want to love, our ending love. 
Now our friend relation promoted to love relationship. Now we were a couple. She was my angel, my love, my life, Oh yes! she was my girlfriend. As we had some couple talks, it was already late, I decided to leave for home. A moment before leaving, we both had a tight hug, it feels the real fairy tale. Countless peace, love, and we.

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Chp- 03: Flirting & Dating

Welcome back for the next aspect of Teenage Love Psychology i.e. Flirting and Dating. The most joyful aspect in love life, or it can also be said in the sense, the most auspicious and memorable period all through the relationship and quite interesting too. Everyone loves to flirt and date, in the movies said,"It's good for health" so true. In one simple word flirting defines impression, even its a perfect saying that" The first impression is the last impression". Every teenager tries various different ways of flirting and dating. By coffee in a cafe, giving gifts, spending time in a romantic scenario, taking care of and many more unique ideas.

So friends! Let's move the story ahead, the story is up to, Sankalp Dewal and Aisha Mehta are now good friends, they have exchanged their numbers too, here we start the flirting and dating scenario.


As I was in a sweet dream of Aisha, phone rings, its Raghav my classmate.
Hey Sankalp! Raghav on another side.
Yeah! Bro..Watsup. In a lazy tone as I have been yet to wake up.
Listen! Have some work for you, Today its Aisha’s birthday.
What? excited and wide a smile on my face.
But Aisha never told anyone about her birthday, so how would you know? I questioned him in an investigate manner.
As Aisha never tell anyone about her birthday, and she had not even updated it on facebook.
That’s not bloody important. Your work is to bring the cake for her, we will all gonna celebrate her birthday in the college.
Yeah sure bro…definitly, in excitement.
I threw up my blanket, wake up from the bed and started getting ready for the celebration. I get the chocolate cake from the bakery and moved on to the college. As always late comer Aisha, comes and I was late for on this special day. The class was yet to start, I entered the class carrying the cake, our friends stood up and started singing the birthday song. Raghav cracked the birthday bomb and Aisha was shocked seeing the scenario. Her smile shocked eyes and hand on her cheeks. As always Aisha's sight was expressing what she was feeling. I wrapped out the cake and putted up in front of her desk. She gave me an innocent smile, and with some shy and low voice, I wished her the birthday.

That day I attended the whole college, Everyone was surprised and some professors were new to me, and I too was new to them. At the end of the college, we all were coming downstairs in the parking area, I wished her again, she thanked me with her special smile.

As I was recalling the fun we had today, my empty mind had an idea to write a lovely poem for her as a birthday gift. Constantly, Aisha was visible to me. Her all time amazing Cinderella get up. It was 11:30 PM, I decided to ring her. Putting a stone on my innocent heart, I called her, she was sleeping.
Hey Aisha! hesitating and the little bit scared voice. I was completely running my voice low.
Hello, Sankalp! Watsup! in lazy and sleepy voice.
Oh! Are you in bed? I bluff my empty head.
Mmmmm!! Yeah! What happened? again lazily.
Oh! I am so sorry girl.. sorry to disturbed you.. Gud Night!! Constantly bluffing head with my eyes closed.
No, Sankalp! It's fine, no more formalities. In an innocent touch of voice. 
Er!! I just want to tell you something. Little bit scared and hesitated too and a try of impressing her.
I just want to wish you again Aisha, Now it's 11:50PM , just 10 minutes left to end the special day, as I was failed to wish you first for the birthday, Now I want to wish you the last, this wish will be definitely work till your next birthday. Again taking a deep breath and fingers crossed as I was afraid of her reply, So Many Happy Returns of the Day Aisha, God will keep you happy all through life. and I paused. 
Reply was yet to come, few seconds of silence, she replied, OMG! Sankalp, Thank you so much..Its really sweet of you! and our call extended till early morning, I think it was 3:30 am. 

Three hours, I will not forget these hours all through my life. In these three hours, her talks were new to me, her voice was new to me. We both shared everything with each other. Exchanged our thoughts, shared our happy life, sad life, weakness, difficulties, fun talks, and had some weird talks too. I flirt with her as a ball was on my court. And the patent Bollywood dialogue "Jo Mauka Chode Wo Mard Kesa! I tried my level best to impress her. But, what I was talking, sharing with her, was only from my innocent heart. I presented my heart in front of her. And that only girls like it. 

Every day, I was excited about the college. Today I want to give my special Gift to Aisha. I hope she would like it. I properly wrapped my poetry, including two chocolates. She was yet to come. Bell rings, and we all settle down for the lecture. I was wondering outside, waiting for Aisha to come. As we last benchers were playing pen fight, Aisha enters, she permits professor to come in, and as she was 25 minutes late for the lecture, professor refuses her to come in and wait outside till the lecture ends. Bloody fucker the professor!! She went downstairs, as my empty mind flashes up with an  idea, this is the prefect time to give her the gift. I asked the professor for the washroom. I went out with my gift in a pocket. I was wondering her, from the back side, Aisha calls by my name, with her innocent and questioned manner.
Sankalp? she says
Oh! Hi..replies her giving a smile.
What are you doing here, you are not attending the lecture? again in a questionable manner with some hand gestures.
"No! I think, mmmm!! I was late and the professor refused me to get in". I was lying her.
Oh! Same here, bloody cheapo Upadhyay. crooked her neck.
Hey, Aisha!, Lets cut this crap here only, I have one surprise for you. I gently take out the gift from my pocket, looking in Aisha eyes and a fake smile.
This is it, Wish you Again belated happy birthday Aisha. I was staring her constantly in her eyes and this time my smile was real, directly from my innocent heart.
"OMG! Sankalp, Thank you so much, Sankalp It's really sweet of you". with a cute smile that directly enters into my heart. 
"By the way, What is this?" she was trying to see what is written inside the rolled paper.
Nothing! will you please wrap out after going home? with a shy touch of voice.
And she wrapped out in front of me, raillery smile towards me. My only wish was to run away from her, a vast hesitation, shyness. She was going through the poem and slowly her smile was glowing. up on her face. 
"It's really sweet of you Sankalp! I mean it's amazing," as always her eyes were expressing what she want to express for me.
She offered me for her birthday treat in an ice cream parlour in front of our college. Yes I did some formalities of no no, it's ok, our another lecture will start any moment and blaa blaa, but on the other side I really want to go with her, spend as much time with her to know each other and it was real life fun with her.

There we had a general talk, about my poetry and all that writing stuff. We had some gossips about college staff, our likes dislikes and came back for the other lectures.
                                                                           
                                                                                                                                   to be continued...

Monday, December 22, 2014

Chp- 02: A Step Towards Love Life

So friends! let us continue the story ahead. The story is up, the boy named Sankalp Dewal is in love at first sight! with a girl named Aisha Mehta. He wants to get her with him forever.
                   As I was excited for college tomorrow, I reached early in case of over-excitement and the class was passing the time in a corridor. I was wondering her all around, she was yet to come. All time late comer! :P I was waiting for her to come, staring the college from the first floor. She reached and parked her vehicle, putted out her Handcuff, kept her stole in her bag. Just setting up her little bit messy pony in the mirror. The guy from our class came beside her vehicle and they both were coming towards class while interacting. Her friends, who were beside me, called her and was gossiping about that bloody handsome guy and my cute little angel. One thing I knew is, Aisha had a crush on that bloody handsome guy. Bell rang, and we all settled for the class.

Just seated behind next to her row diagonally, I was staring at her, her all time get up with kajal and her glossy lips and a pony, red nail paint and was rotating her pen, her all time mischief with herself. And I wasn't in a mood, I left college in recess. I was hurt and was lost too. Yesterday I fell in love with her and today I knew she had a crush with that bloody cheap boy. Fuck you boy! In the same evening, I was just surfing my facebook account, I searched her profile, Aisha Mehta, this is it, my Aisha!! I gone through her profile, smile was glowing magically on my face. Thinking of sending her friend request, lots of worries and questions were running out of my empty mind. Relatives think that I am an empty minded guy. I was too nervous to send her a friend request, what would she think about me? If she does not say anything to me tomorrow in college? and some unending disgusting stuff. Putting a stone on my innocent heart, I send her a request, my feeling was, what to do? It was really hard to sleep that night and was nervous and excited too for college tomorrow.

Next day of college, she wasn't yet come! Till now I have heard about a speciality of girls is being punctual, and Aisha is never on time, what kind of girl is she?  and within a second my heart says, this is not like other silly girls, she is something different, this is my love, My Aisha!
Professor steps in, we all settled down for a lecture. As I was nervous and my empty mind was all carrying question marks. I was stopping myself looking at her, as I had no guts to face my love. Constantly, I was staring outside a window and thinking about Aisha's response. Professor notices as my empty mind is running outside road, he threw the chalk to hit me and told me to stand up! A vast hesitation!! Professor asked me some stuff about economics and I was still in a mute mode, I tried my level best and started my comedy comments to impress the class, and an unexpected thing happened, Aisha's smile on my funny comments, her wide smile, and a bit curve. Bell rang, as I was ready to leave the class, Aisha with an innocent voice calls me by my name Hey Sankalp! Shocked, Excited, Nervous, and confused too. I was playing a multiple feelings role. How do you know my name? with some confused empty mind. I just recently saw your friend request! Again a vast hesitating situation.
Are you leaving? she again questioned me by placing her plat from her eyes.
Yup!! have some work! smiling through my innocent heart. I left college.

Oh My God!! really no words to express my happiness, smile was continuously glowing on my face, my love, my Aisha talked to me so good, placing her plat with her innocent smile, and the best part of all our conversation was, she was talking directly making eye contact with me, As now also I recall our first conversation, a smile with different colours glows on my face. Same night as I was surfing my facebook account, for me surfing my facebook is now going through the profile of Aisha.
Aisha was online, with putting my hand over heart and with my eyes closed I send her a text Hey! and our chat started. Just a general chat was going, but it was the too big thing for me, it was something else. And the happiest part is, she completed her schooling from some XYZ ladies Christian school. A very first stuff comes to my mind is, the one big thing is confirmed, that she is not having any relationship at the time of schooling. A sigh of relief. And exchanging our contacts we switched off the chat. The same night situation again, head plugs, love songs, recalling her, my personal diary and me. 

Sunday, December 21, 2014

I Will Rise!

I will rise..
After every fall,
I will rise..
and stand even more tall.

I will rise..
over the wall,
I will rise..
above them all.


Saturday, December 20, 2014

Chp- 01: Love At First Sight




So let us start with the first aspect of the teenage love psychology series, teenager come across a main aspect or it might be said a seed of love life i.e. our current topic Love At First Sight. It also indicates a true love. Love, at first sight, means to fall in love with a lover at first meet. The moment we saw the lover, we fell in love, we feel happiness and our heart beat to see again and again. Love, at first sight, is not easy to explain. The famous British writer Israel Zangwill states, "The only true love is at love at first sight, second sight dispels it". 

So friends, let's get linked to a story line, it's a short story and the same story will connect you to link all through the series of Teenage Love Psychology. 
                 On a very first day of commerce college, a curly haired boy wearing a college uniform, white shirt, and sky blue trouser had been seated on a second bench of a middle row. As no one was known to him, he was observing his new classmates, and that's actually me, Sankalp Dewal!
                 Bell rang, professor steps into the class with a sheet of attendance. Without wasting any time professor, starts a conversation with new batch mates. A Few minutes later, highly breathing with a jumpy sound and an innocent touch of voice says 
May I come in Ma'am? 
voice indicates a girl which is highly breathing and a little bit scared. As I fluctuate my eyesight towards a girl, I observes her innocent face, her eyes filled with eye wash, her little bit outstretched pony and her fingers were continuously playing together, it was just an indication of hesitation. Professor permits her to step in and she slowly ran towards her seat beside her friend and sits seeing around. My eyesight was still stuck towards her. Every now and then she used to place her plat and biting her lips, and she too was rotating a pen between her two fingers, quite creative.
                 The Professor starts with an introduction, "My name is Prof. Veena Mehta, I will be your class teacher and your English professor. So let's start introducing one at a time, Constantly, I was staring her, I was extremely excited to know her good name, she stood up and introduced her in a confident and quite innocent voice, Aisha Mehta, I smiled a bit. After introduction part, prof. bored with some instructions and some rules and regulation and permitted to leave the class. As no one was my friend on my very first day of  college, I immediately ran towards home. At night, I put up my head plugs and started listening to songs. When I was in a mess of college tomorrow, I was just recalling some college hours, as I was recalling some college hours, the visible face in my mind was Aisha's. Her silky haired pony, deep eyes that say everything, her red nail paint, the side face, everything was visible to me. I was happy with my feeling, romantic love silent songs and her visible face in my eyes, Oh My God! What a feeling it was!! A love song played and then I came to know that I was in love, love at first sight. I hurriedly stood up from the bed and started sharing my world best feeling to my personal diary. The Smile was continuously glowing on my face. My excitement overloaded for another day of my college. Every day I started waiting for her to come, staring at her, capturing her smile, I had even started designing our future life too. Now I started living in such an attitude that, I am in love with her, I will definitely make her mine!
                                                                                                                                 ...to be continued
   
So friends, as per the psychological study and with some experiences as my viewers shared with me, love at first sight is not fiction, it is a true concept. Love at first sight is a small bit of magic, not an incomprehensible miracle, but a wonderful slice of reality. Mostly, in a teenage generation, this adorable miracle happens. Yet having experienced how truly special it is to look at a stranger and know that they will become dear to me. Teenage is the first step of falling in love, at first sight, love and a true love. In a teenage generation, love happens, it really accepts with a very innocent mind, innocent beat of the heart, and an innocent smile on face, innocent trust, innocent love. Love at first sight is obviously another peace and an art of life. Something is magical in this, a stranger come towards our site, and we just start staring and dreaming all through the day, just holding the hands tight, and planning to live together. 




Friday, December 19, 2014

Teenage Love Psychology: Introduction


Finally, time passed and started writing about, one of my all-time favorite label i.e. loves life. The teenage love psychology it is. There are the number of psychological experts related to the current subject, I am obviously not one of those luminaries. The Main aspect of writing this blog is to unveil my thoughts and share some of my views to the viewers and followers. I simply hate theoretical part, research from the internet and all that bloody damn stuff. This is a philosophy blog and more I like about philosophy is, it comes from the heart, it doesn't need any research but an experience.  This series is fully based on teen generation, here teen period mentioned is 14-19 years of age.

So guys, firstly let's start with the basic question, What love means to the teenager? Emmmmm....yeah!! is it a pass time? or it might be a show-off? rather a craze of being in a relationship, and there are some unique fellows, who live with an attitude like "If my friend is in a relationship, then why not me?". If you are among such fellows, then I must say that you have beaten a hatch on your own foot, Jokes apart!! But this attitude lives in every teenager and it's quite often. Elderly thinks, a 16-year-old teenage child, what knows about love. I must say that this thinking is obviously facing them in a wrong path. Love is such a feeling, that it comes only from the heart, it doesn't need any qualification, nor a standard nor a status. You might have gone through a famous quote on love is " In Love.. Age, Height, Weight are just a mere numbers". So lovely lines they are. According to my research, about three to four people who think love is just a fucking bullshit, it is not something. So, this series will discuss and share some point of views and those who think or critic love will definitely prove them wrong.

Following are the contents of the series of Teenage Love Psychology: 

1. Love At First Sight.

2. A Steps Towards Love Life.

3. Flirting And Dating.

4. Time To Propose My Love.

5. A Fresh New Relationship.

6. Doubts, Complications & Fights

7. Break Up It Is!

8. Memories Never Ends.
                               
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Sunday, December 14, 2014

आनंदमय जीवन ..

एक नविन दिशा दाखवली..
जगायला एक वेगळच साहस दिला,
आपल्या कृपेना..
जीवन जगण्याची ज्योत आमच्यात उमगली.  

आता परंता आकाशकडे बघितल्यावर..
फक्त पक्षी च दिसत होते,
तुमच्या मार्गदर्शनानी..
आज मोठा स्वप्ना पण दिसत आहे.  


Saturday, December 13, 2014

Forever Connected!


Every moment we spent together..
has touched our live, souls forever,
The things that we shared and learned..
is true love that we have earned.


I am who I am partly because of you..

and you are YOU because of me, too,
I will never forget you..
for my love is honest and true.

Friday, December 12, 2014

Secrets!

I have some secrets hidden inside..
I wanna let them go,
I need to share..
But No one cares it all,
So how can I let them know.

I need someones trust..
My life is now full of rust,
I need to share..
But no one cares it all,
So how can I let them know.